Tuesday, March 17, 2009

This is getting old...

So I have had sleep problems pretty much my whole life. It sucks terribly because I can never get caught up. I heard it's like seven hours of sleep you need to actually catch up for one lost hour. Yeah, I'll be dead before I am halfway caught up. That's just great.

So yeah, I'm getting farther into the series I have been reading. It is absolutely amazing. Fuck stupid Harry Potter shit that you guys read. This is better than freaking Twighlight! No bullshit. Terry Goodkind= The Sword of Truth Series. They actually started a show about it it's that good. The books are way better if you read them first but the show is amazing. The characters are portrayed really well.

I can't believe it's Spring Break and I have absolutely no plans. Where did my social life go? Damn. All I have to do is write a huge research paper, and get my portfolio turned in. Whoopdie Do. This is just lovely. I hate being responsible. It's no fun anymore.

I want sleep more than anything in the world. :(

"I do believe you're talking out of your ass."

Well, anywho... anyone who reads this really needs to start a blog. I want something interesting to read and I would like to know more about the people who are interested in my life. I am interested in yours also. Yours are probably way more exciting than mine also. Haha. Sorry that my myspace has become so boring. Since I took out all the extra stuff, it's amazing how much my stuff has risen (messages, comments, etc.).

If anyone has anything that they would like me to express my opinion on or elaborate on, let me know. I need some more blogging ideas. It is stress relieving to blog and fun. :) Message me on myspace and keep me going...

OMG! Def Leppard is coming to Tulsa in August. I am ecstatic and I don't even know how i am going to get there. But I do know that I am going to find a way. This is like my favorite band in the entire world and they are not going to be around much longer. Hehe. Anyone want to donate to the Hope Goes to Def Leppard fund? Message me and let me know and I'll open up a paypal account. Haha.


Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Back to blogging

So, I actually lost my sign in information for this site and so my blogging was postponed for a bit, but now I'm back! It's crazy all that has happened in just 3 months. My baby boy turned into a big boy on his second birthday in December! Now he's talking so much along with doing so much physically. He has become so active it's crazy. I can't help but think about when he was just an infant and motherhood was so completely new to me. It makes me smile to think how terrified and unsure I was being pregnant at 15. How unprepared I was for everything in front of me and how much I thought I was inadequate. My son has proven to be the most beautiful and pure thing that has ever happened to me in my short 18 years. It has also been the hardest journey I have ever gone through, and it will never end. Thank God. So I kind of went off into a rant...

Today I had to be up at 7:00 a. m. to go pick my cousin(who I can't stand) and take her to court to keep her from jail. It wasn't me just being nice by far. I'm not that nice. I knew if I didn't go pick her up, that my grandmother would be the one doing it, and she is really not up to something like that currently. She(my cousin) had the nerve to be completely rude to me this morning when I was giving her the only ride she had! I got out of bed early and spent my time doing something for her when I'm furious with her, and she wanted to be rude because she didn't wake up on time. I wanted to strangle her! Instead, I just killed it with kindness. And that was HARD.

Right now I am sitting in bed drugged up on pain pills and muscle relaxers. I'm in the middle of having an ovarian cyst rupture and hoping this heating pad helps with the pain. Oh to have insurance! I'm terrified that this IUD is causing me to not be able to have kids in the future. It has already tilted my uterus and scared it. And for the past year now, it has caused me to have ovarian cysts that instead of going away just get larger and larger til they rupture. Ouch! Also dealing with this fibrocystic breast complex is really frustrating. I know I don't have much to bitch about compared to some people, but this is my blog, and I would like to vent :)

School is becoming very stressful. The stress is due to me mostly though. I am such a procrastinator, and I make it so much harder on myself by leaving all of my stuff to the very end which makes me have way more to do at one time and I feel completely overwhelmed and swamped because every huge thing is due the next day. Ugh I really need to break this habit. Cleaning my room is right up in there. I keep getting further and further behind due to my sleep schedule. I really need to fix that.

Summer is coming up and I'm really disappointed that I may not be able to comfortably wear a bikini like I had planned for. I'm angry with myself for not sticking to a stricter diet and work out schedule to lose the weight I wanted to for a bathing suit. I'm gonna try to start going tanning every now and then to until I feel comfortable physically. We'll see how that goes.

Well, looks like I've posted enough for now. Hope to gain more readers! xoxox